don't blame me guys.. i really thinks he is ugly ... and she is singing and cocking like a laughing banshee ... i don't like them not as in their appearance and sound... but their character... but then she did turn out to be a good laughing stock for me and Christina and we immediately grab bingda's mp3 and stuff our mind with some loud music rather than screeches.. still it wasn't futile and both of us bite the straw real HARD while drinking to prevent laughing...

but then i think i should not have done that because i am no better than them .. my singing sucks too hmmms .. so i whispered instead of sing..



Bingda and Christina are starting to sound like my siblings... Bingda is like my big brother while Christina is like my elder sis(when generally i am bigger than her by 5 months!) and were talking abt how loser i was coz i cried on the second day of orientation=.= .. saying how i got bullied so damn easily and worrying about my poly life=.= .. saying i very 吃得开 .. how can i survive like this ?? actually i don't need to be protected wan.. but people still protects coz i "nvr see the real world" frankly...i don't like to be "insulted" like this .. Christina knows it lo.. i have been "verbally insulted"like this for countless of times while working and schooling and its hard to change .....what? become macho the second day and slam chairs and tables if i refuse to do what they asked me to ?? no way right? i don't know how to change in this area ... i reckon its not an easy task since i tried changing before ..



i just wan to be protected by ONE ...

this sign is a super "confidential" sign between us LOL. . rubbish sign la..

until then

jingxuan .. the small girl in a BIG world..