i tell myself not to cry in front of my new classmates.. they will be my classmates for hopefully three years and i wish to show the best of me in front of them ... moreover its a fact that this is just a game and any forfeit, be it lenient or cruel, should be serve should i lose in the game.. and heaven knows how many times i had lost...


their punishment : climb on top of a guy's back... i followed... cross ur ear and stand and squat continuously for 5 times... i followed... i know my female clasmates are very kind souls they pity me every time i serve my punishment ... i am gald they care ..

but some which i really cannot stand it and everytime my target will be that particular chubby guy.. example: i have to kiss the guy opposite of me .. which is him.. if not.. i have to pole dance with a guy.. which is once again him.. then i was asked to do many foolish stuffs with him which i had protest ridiculously strong.. but the mentor think i am not steady enough or thinkis i am joking

i once again remind myself.. this is a game.. i cannot cry ... bingda say if i don't like the game.. just walk away and go home and i CANNOT cry.. i keep saying this to myself and when i know i lost ONCE AGAIN.. i bit my lips and close my mouth damn hard.. i blink quickly to evaporate any tears and so tat noone sees it ..but then too late liao ... one of the boys notice my plight and helped me.. i took my phone and just walk out with the mentor chasing me LOL ..its kinda spoiling the game.. i kept apologising though they chorused that it was not my fault and that the game was indeed a "cruel" game .. then i saw three of my new classmates consoling and help me "do justice" by complaining bout the unreasonable punishment tati have to serve...they then said that if i were caught in another forfeit they will help to take the punishment.. so touched right??? somemore weihong and bingda called to console me.. i have good friends around me indeed.. but i don't want such a treatment ever again ...

until then
jingxuan the weakling this time