confession part 1 (super long entry)

skip if u dun wanna read

we confess EVERYTHING yesterday ...we chat for damn long ok?? from around 12.30 AM to 3 am ...and now i felt that we are 1 step closer to being a even better and close friend... i apologise to MK for speaking the bad of chua .. i realise i always had this ONE big misunderstanding when steph me MK and chua were together .. i thank him for tolerating my temper last time la.. (i am super stubborn cum short temper in the past)... but that is not the main thing...


the MAIN thinng he apologise for that incident.... hmm this is like the best incident i can remember most vividly and the worst ''chuang shang'' i have ..

this year.. february.. i stead with A and steph with C ... and we had a true or dare session at the car park around 9.30 at night.. so whenever the bottle points to that particular person.. we were to say out all his/her weakness .. the bottle finally pointed to me after all were being pointed.. and everyone had a say in me.. yes.. mk mentioned : 'you are very very stubborn..blah blah blah'' while chua blabbered:"" u are also very short temper blah blah..you must change this' .. and then i replied :"then still got anymore?? " and either steph or C or mk replied :"this is the main point .. u change this FIRST" this sentence leave a DEEP scar in my heart .. its like i am the worst in their group of friends.. its like i still have many many bad points but they din .say.. its like.. those times i have been trying to improve myself.. no one even notice it at all thouugh we were super good friends tat time... i super envy stephanie that time. because when the bottle points to her.. everyone say she really have no bad points nor weakness.. i cried in the bus stop that night with A beside me.. he could do nothing to help .. so i was like even more shag but i forgot about this incident ... until yesterday when MK apologise for this.. i cried again LOL.. the feeling when he apologise is hard to be described.. that feeling is not happy.. its like finally someone notice my plight... and when he said i am not stubborn like last time.. i am so touched ... one of my best friend finally saw my change ..


confession 2 (super long entry)

i knew mk was very guilty all along.. and apologise like endlessly even though i told him its okay haha.. but MK .. i am not ALWAYS right whenever we quarel last time right? there were times i am really really at fault too so dun apologise =)) .. actually i am happy we are now so called seperated .. because i love my life now.. i know sometimes getting involve in quarels and disagreement helps to strengthen our friendship.. that is what u or C always said in the past BUT we really quarelled too much way back then .. so seperation now made me change even more .. i dun wish to change all this for now =) ... to think of it.. i am shouted in the food court... i am scolded in front of you.. making me feel very awkward.. because i dunno how to react whenever i am scolded by him and end up rinnng away or crying.. and its like 80% i have to apologise for everything no matter if i am right or wrong.. because i dun have 'debating' mouth.. when comes to arguing back i lose out to MOST people.. so points i always wished to say out were just kept in my heart because everytime i wana say.. i ended up crying in front of you two and the things i wanna said in my mind either just vanish .. or said out in a wrong manner..

but hey i sound as though quarelling is our usual greetings and commnucation methods LOL.. we do have happy moments right?? like one when we three were so into eating meatball soup at rivervale plaza's foodcourt rmb??.. times where we four were so into the monopoly games.. times where we bought 20 otahs and just eat and chat under the void deck... days when we three stayed over night together in C house... there was also once when my badae cheese cake u bought was licked by u guys and i ate it without knowing.. times when steph and i licked popcorns and dumped it back into the popcorn container and u guys suey suey ate it .. times when steph and i licked the straws and and chopsticks and u guys still use the equipments without knowing .. it was all FUN FUN FUN.. we all have our fun times together too =) so i am contented with everything up till now =DDD .. and MK ar.. hope u further ur studies ..

ps.. arghh winston tht idiot just found the watch i want.. how sad?

jingxuan