My stress level now is so high i am seriously thinking of quitting school .. At first i thought .. hmms now that i am working i should be financially stable.. but NOOOOOOOO ... look at my our whole family's hand phone bill .. Internet... SCV... all cut off... Mom said last month that she will pay for our bills and WAHLAH my dad used it for my grandma's expenses and her maid's salary ...


FUCK U!



CCB u all can share the expenses for my grandmother anot?? why issit only our family sharing?? bloody suckers .. and i tell u i seriously feel like tying u up and cutting out ur throat and hear u scream till ur orange hair turned blood soaked with blood...


the dental have just called and said my mom didn't pay for the last payment and i told her that like 4 months ago to pay ... PROMISE BREAKER! My test is a cannot make it... I STUDIED like hell for maths but WHATS THE POINT?? its either i get border line or below.. AUTOCADS! KNN LEARN LIKE HELL ALSO DUNNO .. REBUS WHO THE FUCK IS DOING NOW?? OH FUCK!THANKS FOR REMINDING MYSELF.. I'M THE ONE DOING! AND ONLY JOHNNY AND I STAYED OVERNIGHT TO DO..AND WHEN I SAY I'M QUITTING SCHOOL .. DON'T SAY THAT I AM STUPID ! I KNOW WHAT I AM DOING... I'm thinking of going shatec next year.. at least i have more interest in that than this FDM COURSE...(and i meant the course... not the people)


HOLY HOLY HOLY SHIT i HAVE WORK LATER AND MY HEAD IS ACHING ITSELF TO SELF DESTRUCTION.

(dOnt talk to me now .. let me have my quiet moments for a while before i face this screwed up life of mine again... )


and sorry for vulgarities

i feel like crying out before i move on ...

stay tuned
jingxuan