i knew i lost myself



(choose not to read.. cause i write this to myself XD)




well something really wrong happen yesterday ... i went kovan with yl .. sm.. han and zal ..





zal got hungry so all of us decided to accompany for his meal.. so as yl sm and i were walking in a straight line .. we blocked a mother and child's way .. she let out a loud ''ZHE" (u know..the soundbite when u are frustrated or angry ?) because sm was in her way .. and bloody F ..the road is so damn big i dunno why she wanna cut in our way.. so i pulled sm to our side to let the mother and child go before letting out a damn loud "ZHE" .. ok here's the scene :

(click to enlarge) so upon hearing my response ..i knew that this unreasonable mother wanted to stop and give me a real bad lecture in front of the crowd which frankly speaking doesn't concerns me ... but she stopped what she was doing and went down the escalator staring at me with her talking eyes (relatively trying to tell me to watch out) until she was nowhere out of sight... after seconds of fuming anger inside me .. i stop and realised i already lost my control ever since her loud :"ZHE" .. and also i lost control when i first slam the voucher at the china customer when she insulted me... i almost scolded fuck and bloody F when i saw Welna's tag.. i lost control so easily now that the second me is taking over my mind in a glimpse ... and all this thinking just struck me in split seconds after the ''unreasonable mom'' incident..

where's my DU LIANG last time? where's my forget it and dun flare policy i secretly made to myself whenever i meet up with nasty people ?? i know myself if i dun let ppl witness this.. i will not be like that crazy me already.. so i pulled yl and sm and swear in front of them saying i will NOT flare up easily and swallow all the nasty attitudes and stuffs that people did to me WITHOUT retaliating ..

so frankly speaking ... i thank god for sending that nasty mother to test my patience =)

but then again .. i hope karma hits her ...

until then

jingxuan the owner of POLKY and the stylist for FLABBY! lol