i don't why i am feeling it now.. its a very very heavy feeling sinking down to the bottom of my body .. i just read zaling's(Faizal) blog and this feeling occurred to me ever since i read his blog till every second i am breathing NOW ..really really... its about the O level exam result with will be out in 5 FEBRUARY 2007 .. i am like trying to recall all that i DO NOT KNOW and the most vivid one i could remember will be the insoluble salts in the first page of the chemistry paper BECAUSE i know i lost ALL the marks on the first page .. then comes MATHEMATICS.. where i came out and just cried while EVERYONE hollered in joy chattering about how easy the paper was -.- .. and NOW i realised that this two subjects are the core to poly ..i know people are saying :''u so smart where will go ite want'' .. or ''aiya u no need worry one la sure can go poly one.. worry for what u so clever'' i HATE THIS SENTENCES.. OK i admit my results are better during the past four years .. but now??? now is a different world..so what if u are smart the past few years.. employees see ur past results exclaiming :'ohh this girl is smart .. we can consider...' and as she flips to my Os and see all the fails she then continued :'NOT hiring her..'


this feeling is really scary.. its like the longer you drag it.. the heavier you feel..this feeling can really kill .... i must get something to do before i am brain dead...please.. let me pass !! if not i am killing myself with sleeping pills Zzz...


p/s yesshhh its a promise between ichigo and ME lol lame~.

and stanley is an ass!

jingxuan