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today morning when i am brushing my teeth i firstly spit out a small lump of foam from my mouth .. after spitting.. i felt that there is something clogging up in my throat and attempted to spit out that amount of saliva (ok i am gross) and gosh i spitted out BLOOD can ? so scary that i immediately drown away all the particles i spitted in the sink ..


this made me thought abt how WEAK i was during my primary sch ... there is this routine where i must always squeeze my thighs whenever our school song and national anthem is sung .. i must squeeze it real hard to keep myself awake .. i always pray that i can pass this ordeal because fainting in school meant that my parents will fetch me and i will be reprimanded for wasting their work time .. those two darn songs were like a fainting curse for me .. even in secondary school.. i continued doing that to keep me awake instead of fainting.. thank god i do not have to sing it ever again . i have graduateddddd!!


so anyway because of the past records of my weakness in school my teacher told my parents to seek a doctor .. we went to a family clinic and the stupid doctor replied that he cant diagnosed what illness i have... is he a doctor?? so he issued me a letter to KK hospital for treatment .. i did injection .. brainscan .. blahs u name it they have it.. and i cost a freaking $300 and thus i am reprimanded again .. weak body is the root of all evil!! they asked me to collect the result the next tuesday and we didn't cause my mother said it was too costly and also she assured me that i am more healthier aft the check up =.= .. no medicine given and she falsely told me that but i still believe her .. i am still a dumb primary 6 kid ~ so anyway i always wanna know what the results were .. i think my parents were smart ebough that they did not give their contact numbers or anything ~ maybe on that day when i got the results .. i might be suffering from leaukemia?? blood cancer??? or just normal amnesia .. but hey i am still alive after 5 years so i think the result will be nothing for now~


stay alive! please!


jingxuan